'For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'

-Jeremiah 29:11-

Do you ever wake up and wonder what you're doing with your life? I know sometimes I wake up and think I am wasting my time trying to get a photography degree, a few reasons as to why. 

1.) I'm not as good as I wish I was. 

2.) It probably won't get me very far in life. 

3.) Anyone can take a picture. 

There is like the sea of self doubt that I swim in constantly, especially when it comes to my photography. "Am I doing the right thing with my life? Am I wasting my time? Should I be a physical therapist instead? How far is this going to take me? How am I supposed to support my future family with taking photos?" 

Then I think 'am I making up excuses?' Of course I am. I am scared to death to follow where my heart leads me. It's scary to follow through with where you want to go. But think about how far you have already come and how many trials you have faced. You were made for this life, and if you weren't capable of living it;you wouldn't be here. 

I think fear eats each and everyone one of us up in certain aspects of our life. Too scared to send in that application for that program or school you want to get into. Too scared to wear the cute studded boots for fear of judgment from others. Too afraid to text an old friend that you miss. Too nervous to go to the gym cause you know you're not as fit as everyone else there. Everyday each and every one of us are faced with something we are afraid to do.  

Remember when we were kids and we were afraid to get on the roller coaster? And your older sibling basically made you get on because they couldn't leave you by yourself on the ground and you were scared for your life. Then you got on and screamed at the top of your lungs and nearly peed your pants. Then as soon as the ride came to a stop and you got off , you just wanted to get on again. That's kind of what life is life, actually that is exactly what life is like. It's all about taking chances. You were put on this Earth for a reason and God has a plan for you; you just kind have to take the road that's been paved. 

I have a few friends who don't believe that God and Heaven is a real thing. That's fine, but I know He enlisted some sort of talent and responsibility in each and everyone one of us despite our beliefs. Now this may be just me, but I seriously think that doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. A lot of the problem comes from not knowing where to start with your goals. If that's you, then hit me up. We can work together to figure out what you need to do. Because I believe you can do it. I believe that there is this glorious beautiful plan for you. I believe that it's waiting for you, you just have to follow your heart. I know that it's hard, but nothing worth having is suppose to come easy. TRUST ME. I've heard multiple people say 'it's a lost cause.' 'God didn't make a plan for me.' WRONG. There is no such thing as a lost cause. And like I said whether you believe it or not, there is a plan for you. How do I know this? Cause there is one for me, and heaven knows I am the most indecisive person in the entire world. Like if I go to Subway for lunch and I can't decide which cheese I want, I get them all. That's my life and not to mention super unhealthy. LOL, but you catch my drift.

Don't give up and live in this sea of self doubt that I very often sulk in. Why? Cause you're too damn special and too damn beautiful and smart and talented to let all of it go to waste. Don't compare your Chapter 1 to someone elses Chapter 12. Everyone started somewhere. It's just conquering that self doubt and fear that lives in us. You're not wrong for being scared. This world is scary. 

So do yourself a solid. Send in that nursing application or your application to be on the next season of The Bachelor. Wear those cute studded boots that you spent too much money, cause you did not spend $50+ to let them sit in your closet. Rock those boots. PLEASE. Text that old friend that you miss, chances are they miss you too. Go to the gym and help yourself, I can assure you that there is nothing that an earful of One Direction and sweaty buff men can't fix. Let me also remind you, that people were not born fit...they worked for it. 

So take this moment right now, make yourself some sort of promise that you're going to do something tomorrow that you were to afraid to do the day before. Take this second to remind yourself that you are wonderfully and beautifully made and that God has a plan for you. 

Did you do it? Good. 

One more thing. I believe in you.

On another totally different note. High School Musical came out 10 years ago. Do you feel old now?